Around 2009, my attention was captured by the theory that CBT, or Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, was effective in controlling behavior due to IBS. Since my anxieties had been mounting steadily over the years, and IBS was (and is) ruling my life, I thought I’d give it a go. After all, what’s the harm in a non-invasive theory that might even help me cope? The Dr. I chose (for proximity and willingness to specifically target IBS) was OK, I guess. But either she or the entire therapy itself just did not reach me. Whenever she would ask me ” what’s the worst that could happen in such and such a situation?”, I would absolutely think of some terrifying and embarrassing answers. She would dismiss what I said and try to minimize the effect of these situations. While I appreciated the thought process behind what she was presenting, I couldn’t be convinced. After all, I have lived these episodes, and I know how painfully and relentlessly horrible symptoms appear, sometimes with no warning at all. I also couldn’t wrap my brain around all the charts I had to fill out. The questions and answers many times didn’t seem to apply to what I was experiencing in my life. The book, Controlling IBS by Dr. Jeffrey Lackner, was our bible, and this is what she based the therapy on. I proved a most resistant patient. Perhaps a different Dr. might have presented it in a more personalized and palatable form to me – I really don’t know. When I told the therapist I was going to quit after 8 sessions, she said “Well, OK, if you don’t want to put in the work that’s required of you.” I didn’t care for that either, as I would have done anything to get relief. I felt I was getting nowhere with the whole thing…just getting more and more aggravated and frustrated.